Speaker 1: 0:00

You're now listening to the Wilson King Podcast. This episode of the Wilson King Podcast is brought to you by BrightLive. Contact BrightLive for all your wedding entertainment, band and DJ needs BrightLiveEventscom. Brightliveevents at gmailcom or visit us on Facebook at BrightLive. What the fuck is up? Everybody we are sitting here chilling with an old friend of ours returning guests so stoked to get her back on Kelly Fitzpatrick from the Veterans Purpose Project. What is up?

Speaker 2: 0:57

Hello, glad to be here.

Speaker 1: 1:01

Dude, I am super stoked to get you on the show again. The last time we had you on was a great conversation on literally what the Veterans Purpose Project is, and now you've got some extra stuff to throw in there as well, as you're starting up another nonprofit. That's a branch off from Veterans Purpose, correct?

Speaker 2: 1:22

Yeah, so it's called the Women's Veterans Purpose Project and it's going to be at every single college in America. That's what we're aiming for where women have their own special place to sit, to go and just like to meet each other and to really develop themselves and kind of figure out a way to make their lives better, just like the Veterans Purpose Project find that purpose, and one of the best parts about the Veterans Purpose Project is it's kind of developed into something even bigger than what I thought it was going to be. Essentially, we're going to be helping people develop that purpose over a three month time span and then sending them on a retreat of their choosing. So that retreat will either be like an ayahuasca thing, which we're going to talk about later, or something more along the lines of like if you want to learn how to cook, we'll send you to Paris. If you want to write a book, we'll send you to Spain, just kind of something so you can build your own community, because that's one of the things that's the most difficult about getting out of the military it's just not having a community to talk to.

Speaker 1: 2:27

Oh, I mean, I think that is one of the hardest things, because I literally just had my wife and I just sat down and watched Thank you for your Service. Which phenomenal movie. And that is the second time I've watched it and she was nervous about watching it and I told her I'm like, listen, it's not like one of those like shooter up military movies, like it shows you the back end of like people coming home. You know the struggles they have with not being in the army anymore, the struggles they have with being told that you're too broke to do the only thing you know how to do.

Speaker 2: 3:06

Oh yeah, no, that's. That's such a huge misconception. I'm so tired of leadership being like you're not going to make it in the civilian world because you don't have health care, you don't have this, you don't have that. No, there's so many opportunities and I just I want people to realize that 100%.

Speaker 1: 3:22

I mean honestly the one link that you have in your link link tree or the that link you have on your profile where you can go and look up different employers and see how they rate with working with military. I had no idea about that and before I started a tat like before I attached that link to our descriptions to you know, push what you do a lot out there more and get in front of more people. I went and clicked on that and I looked up my current employer and I think they were like a three star or four star employer, which I'm like fuck, yes, and but like you know, and I was talking to my admin rep about it and I told her about the website and all this and I was like y'all come in at like three or four stars and it's good. She was like, well, what's five star? And I'm like full con, like, and like I told her I was like they only write off of like the amount of pay that you get, like if you get deployed or you get put on active orders, and to get five star, excellent, like if you have to be compensated your whole salary while you're gone. But, like I told her, I'm like. There are hardly any companies in the United States that will fully compensate you while you're gone. The fact that you do what you do is immaculate. It is amazing.

Speaker 2: 4:40

That's so awesome. Yeah, more people need to click on that link because I have put so many awesome resources in there. I mean, I thought the coolest thing was a free wedding dress, and they also do it like a free tux too, for for people getting married. And we all know the first marriage when you're in the military typically doesn't last. So that's that second one will work.

Speaker 1: 5:03

My dad's a prime example of that. He's, I think he's on his fourth, but you know he just didn't pick any. You know his, his first three weren't real winners. And then the woman he's with now pretty much raised me. So aww.

Speaker 2: 5:17

Yeah, our partner is one of the most important things that you could possibly, you know, pick in your lifetime, and it takes a while to kind of develop that. I've been through so many relationships in my life and the one that I currently have is so incredible. I've never had better communication with someone and him and I are just like so like in sync together. We've we traveled to Switzerland even before we like made things official, and while we were in Switzerland, switzerland we made things official and then I was like, just so, you know, dating me, you're gonna get to travel a lot because I love to travel. So we went to Mexico this last week and I'm really excited to talk about that and and just really delve into like how that really strengthened our relationship. Not only that, but also kind of just the negative states that I was able to get in. It's just oh my gosh, I can't, I can't even explain. The next week I also went to a Joe dispensa event. I don't know if you know who Joe dispensa is, but he's, he's an amazing person. He was a chiropractor for years and he's really delve into the gateway process, which is like a declassified CIA. What is that? What is that called experiment. I guess you could say.

Speaker 1: 6:38

I don't know if you know anything about the gateway process, but I can't say I know a whole lot, but I've went to like start reading it and I'm the type of person that if it's something that doesn't like, just suck me right in right off the rip. I'm just like I'll hear about it somewhere.

Speaker 2: 7:04

Yeah, yeah, I, I love research. I have discovered that about myself. I didn't really like doing any research when I was in the military because I couldn't go to school. First of all, they wouldn't let me because they were like your aircrew, you have to get certified first. And I was like, okay, hold my beer, let's watch this. So I just got certified before everybody else and I was just like fucking the bees knees. Nobody likes that, by the way, when you're in the military. So, yeah, I really like hit that hard and now I'm able to just study everything that I want to, and that's part of it. I mean neuroscience, psychology. I'm planning on getting my masters at this place. I never know how to pronounce. I think it's like Marr Rossi University and everybody says it's like that movie accepted, like somebody just made up a college and people are just going there and I'm like, well, I don't care, because they do one class a month and there's no finals. Hmm, yeah, one class a month and there's no finals whatsoever. You can finish your master's degree in 10 months. It's certified, it's paid for, like the federal government recognizes it as a college. So I'm like I mean, might as well get my master's degree in human consciousness and human development. Like, why not?

Speaker 1: 8:30

Dude, that is. That's awesome to hear. I remember the last time we talked, we were, you know, talking about college and all that, and like hearing the come up you've had over this last year is so amazing to hear. And I mean honestly, dude, I just feel like 2023 has been like the year of growth because I've even got like the majority of my friends are getting in better situations in life, finding better jobs, finding, you know, stability in their life in a time where it's really hard to be stable right now. But they are finding that stability and they're making the changes in their life that they need to. And like I thought someone was joking with me whenever, whenever, like the year kicked off and someone came to me and was like yo, this is the year we all make it. And I'm like I don't know, man, like for three years removed from COVID, you know, I don't know how that's going to be and then just watching all of my friends just one come up after another after another and I'm just like, holy fuck, 2023 is the year for people. Right now. I mean, granted, you still got people struggling out there, but the majority of the people I know are on their up bringing.

Speaker 2: 9:45

Yes, yes, I, I've realized that the consciousness have shifted from lack to even if even if we don't really have that much, we really do and we're starting to really develop this like communal connection with each other. The more people that I meet, they're more like open and so excited to just just be a part of something and more people are starting to realize like, hey, the government has been holding us back a lot and we can change that. We have the ability to do that Like even if I'm not even going to get into politics, but a lot of things have happened that show that things are not really what they seem and I just, I really want to get people to realize how important it is to have community. Community is our number one and I know I talked about that on the last podcast and every single community that I get into, all these people, there's like so many synchronicities of just like okay, this person, I sat next to this woman, okay, this is. I'm going to go ahead and get into a little bit of this. So, um, last week I was at Joe Dispens and Joe Dispens is like a um chiropractor who is is now into like neuroscience and he does a lot of like it parallels with the gateway process with the CIA and um. He talks about getting into the higher consciousness and that higher consciousness, once you hit gamma waves in meditation, is where you can put whatever you want into the void and it will manifest in the matrix and the world is the matrix. So once you get past those theta waves into gamma waves, you're able to connect to source energy. And I know this sounds so wild and a lot of people are like what does that even mean? But like it's so, it's so true. Once you hit those gamma waves, you can have anything that you want. You put it out there. It's going to happen. And something incredible happened to me. Multiple incredible things happened to me while I was at Joe Dispens and this was the week after my ayahuasca trip. I we did a walking meditation, which is one of Joe Dispens is like staples. So we're outside. It looks creepy as hell, cause there's like a thousand. There was 1900 of us just standing there, not moving or anything. You can see this stuff on Tik Tok. It's hilarious. And you're just standing there, not moving, and you have like your headphones on, your eyes are closed or you weren't a blindfold and he's like getting you, getting you into a trance state, and that goes on for about 20 minutes. And then, after that 20 minutes, you start to walk and you walk as yourself, like you walk as, as the person that you want to be. You're creating those neural pathways in your brain to just like, really solidify the power that you are. And his words are like become the healer, become the mystic, become, become the wizard, like whatever you want to be you are and just be a part of of this collective. And the, the people in that whole arena, were incredible humans Like the. The love that you feel from those events is insane. When you get that many people together and they're together for seven days you're going to feel that coherence of just love. And as you're walking, you're just not really paying attention to anyone around you. You're just dancing, you're having a good time, and then he tells you to stop again and you close your eyes. And when I did that, my little self appeared next to me, like like me is probably like seven years old, and then myself and the military popped up on the other side of me and then my higher self was like this big black shadow and I was holding their hands, walking in this like trance state and I was just realizing, okay, now is the only thing that matters, nothing matters from the past, nothing matters from the future, like now is the only thing. And when I open my eyes, I realized like my book name is going to be walking together. And when I was getting into the person's the this like synchronicity there was a woman who sat right next to me and she, she's an artist. And I was like, hey, I'm looking for somebody to draw my book cover that I just dreamed up in this like crazy walking meditation. And she was like yeah, absolutely, how can I help you? So it was like every single person I met was just like right, in line with what I needed, my friend needed a cleaner. So there was this girl who lived right in like Lakewood and was like oh, I have a cleaner that could clean the house for you. And then I was having issues with my RV and I was thinking to myself okay, I want to see a red balloon today, because that'll be like my symbol, because that'll that'll be like what I'm manifesting. I get a phone call from camping world and camping world's like hey, we just wanted to let you know that we're going to fix your RV and it's not going to be any cost to you. And I was like, okay, cool, turn the corner. There's a red balloon on the ground. I can't make this shit up.

Speaker 1: 15:08

One of my favorite things about hearing about any of these retreats you know need to be an ayahuasca retreat, meditation retreat, one that I know that has done one of them. One or the other has always came out of it with a better mindset, a better lookout on life just has came out with a better outlook on everything. And you know, meditation is something I have tried getting into but I'm a busy body, I can't. I've tried doing meditation, you know, I've done the two, three, four, five minute ones and I'm just like I don't know what sitting still is as a person. But I also don't know if that's like my reaction to like being stressed out or, you know, being upset about something. Like I stay busy, like my wife she's like I don't, I don't get it. Like you're always like up and ready to roll Cause, like even on the weekends I'm getting up at five, six am granted, most of the time it's to go golfing, but like even if I sleep in, I don't sleep in past seven and then I'm just up and go, go, go, go, go till one, two in the morning and then it's right back to status quo, like you know what I mean and I don't know how to sit. Still, I've always wanted to meditate, but I don't know how to just like release.

Speaker 2: 16:41

One of the most difficult parts about meditation is getting to that state of just release and letting yourself, like sit with the thoughts, right. So when I first started meditating, I was like this is dumb, this is dumb, but you're wrestling with those thoughts for a reason. The world will always show you what you need to work on. So if you're feeling irritated or if you're feeling restless or whatever, that's what you need to work on. That's what. That's what will take you to the next level of being able to just like have everything that you want. Being able to sit with yourself and go inward and get to those gamma rays or gamma waves. That is what will bring you to the next level of calm. This is the next level of evolution for human beings is to tap into the pinot gland and to make sure that we're taking time for ourselves, because once you get into meditation, that hour long meditation feels like five minutes. It's. We call it the meditation minutes, like, yeah, however long those meditation minutes were, it doesn't, it doesn't matter once you really get into it. So start with noise, start with something like sound bowls or get somebody who's guiding you. If you can start with a meditation that requires you to do something. You're not thinking about your thoughts. So the meditation like a walking meditation or a meditation where you're squeezing your feet and then squeezing your calves and then squeezing your thighs like moving up the body and really figuring out where you are, because every single day, 95 percent of what we think is subconscious oh, 100, I can agree with that.

Speaker 1: 18:26

And your boy doesn't even like sit around to think that much. Dude, I, I know me personally, uh, I know it's probably in insecurities and shit, but like I know, like there's times in the day where I'm like I'm always second-guessing like does this person like me do, did, did I do something wrong? and you know it's definitely insecurities. It's, you know, past stuff that I've dealt with. I mean, you know, being in the military, plus also my whole life playing super physical contact sports. You know you, you don't think in the time that you're doing it that it put any kind of trauma on you. But, like you know, having a coach that if you fuck up, loses his shit on you, that's that imprints on you growing up and, uh it, it took me a very, very long time to realize that. You know, maybe that dude, that that coach being so, I mean, granted, the coach did it, wanting to see me succeed, right, I looked up to that coach as a father figure, you like, like, like, you know what I mean. And um, that, right there, it took me a night of just hanging out at the house, had nothing to do, you know, was just sitting around on tiktok and I had an epiphany. I'm like dude, what if the reason like I'm always so worried about doing something right, asking the questions, even if I know that I'm not fucking up, making sure that it's the right way is my response to who having coaches or having leaders just lose their mind because I fucked up?

Speaker 2: 20:07

one minute detail yeah, I think the best way to get through those types of thoughts is to realize you're having them, because once you start to think, okay, instead of having the thought that right, you think to yourself I am having the thought that I am having the thought that I'm not a good enough girlfriend, I am having the thought that I'm these people don't like me, and reflecting it back and just really being like, okay, let me sit with that, let me really discover why I feel that way. So you're, you're starting to do the ABC like CBT thing, um, cognitive behavioral therapy where you're, you're assessing why you're feeling that way and then the emotions, the emotions that are involved with it. So you're aware of it. That awareness is what brings it to the forefront. So the next time you react in the same way or a similar way, you don't have to react that way because you're like I'm conscious that I'm thinking this because of this situation and I am not my thoughts 100%.

Speaker 1: 21:19

I mean, it's like even uh, being a leader in the army is helping me a lot through a lot of uh the things that I do uh you know be be be in an NCO and and in the army of today is can be really hard uh, and you know, I notice traits of me acting like leaders that, like I promise myself I would never be. Like you know, but coming into the military when I did was kind of like in that weird transition period like where it was still like you know, you're, you're, you're going to get fucked up if you fuck up, but then also like it's never the army like introduced stress cards, like it was like in that weird transition period. So you know, I had a lot of very old school leaders whenever I joined the army, not that they were bad leaders. You know I'd follow them through a fucking brick wall not even knowing what's on the other side, like Lila, you know what I mean but, um, you know, I've, I've always had that outlook on the military of like yo, if, like someone who's higher than you needed, you know if you're an e1 and an e2 comes up to you and tells you go, do something, like the way the structure works, you know you go. Like, like you, you go and do it. And, uh, you know, I've my. My leadership style is like, look bro, I'm gonna ask you like three times to go do it and then, like you don't go and do it, like I'm probably gonna blow a fucking top, not meaning to obvious, like like you know, I don't mean to do it, but like we need to go get shit done. But I'm noticed. But you know, I've had conversations with, uh, you know, first sergeants I've had and I'm just like I'm trying to be better, but like it's really hard whenever that's the leadership you've been shown like your whole career yeah, and that's that's where it takes um, the awareness.

Speaker 2: 23:17

And once you get to that awareness, you can stop yourself and then go back to your breath. That's what we always say and in the communities that I'm in just go back to your breath, okay, deep breath, let me take that again. And then just take a couple deep breaths and just be like okay, how can I respond to this? To where I don't feel like a dickhead or an asshole, because there's there's so much that we could do if we would just chill the fuck out and like realize that we're triggered by something. Once you respond to that trigger, you're you're telling the same stories over and over again. Once you stop that pattern, you are elevating yourself and your frequency, so that way you're not bothered by these things anymore and you're breaking those patterns. Literally, frequencies that come from each of our chakras are patterns. Everything is patterns. Once you break those patterns, new ones can form and then your vibration gets higher and you start to to elevate yourself into the higher consciousness do 100% now.

Speaker 1: 24:30

Now I want to get into your Mexico trip as well. Yeah, so how? How was? Since we've already talked about your meditation trip, I'm gonna you know this question about to ask do you feel like, with your trip to Mexico, with your ayahuasca retreat, do you feel like you're the meditation retreat you just went on? Do you think it would have been better or do you think it would have been about the same if you wouldn't have had the ayahuasca retreat beforehand?

Speaker 2: 25:01

okay, ayahuasca is what opens your eyes, opens you completely, opens you completely to the void, opens you completely to the beings that people talk about, opens you completely to everything being beyond the veil, beyond this lifetime. And I would not have been, I don't think it would have been the same if I didn't see that, before going to joda-spenza, going to all, going on the ayahuasca retreat was the best thing I feel like I could have ever done for myself. And I'll tell you about each night individually and start with night one. We were given one cup of ayahuasca and everyone was so nervous because you don't know what to expect when you go on those retreats. You hear about like I'm gonna, you're gonna throw up and you're just gonna purge all night, yada, yada, yada. And it was very true for me, it was very, very true for me. But what ayahuasca shows you is what you need to work on. I don't think I've been anxious since that day, day because I'm no longer fearful of anything in my life because of that experience, because I was throwing up and shitting myself literally all night. I didn't see a thing the first night and I was like, oh, this sucks, and I just kept going back from work. I had three cups of ayahuasca, which is a lot, and I didn't feel a single thing. But my boyfriend did and I got up and I was like just frustrated out of my mind. I go over to him, I'm like, hey, do you want to go outside with me? So we start walking around. Actually, I lied, I did see one thing before the first cup and then someone okay, I'm gonna restart. So the first cup of ayahuasca I closed my eyes and I was getting into a meditative state because that's what I saw other people doing, and I saw this cat come up in my my like whatever, whatever, whatever was before me, and the cat goes I'm your guide cat. And then the dude next to me starts throwing up and I got irritated, which is the ayahuasca showing you something? I got super irritated, woke up from this like trance and then just started throwing up myself and then, after that, was just like I can't get back to where I was, which is fine. So back to where we were. I was, I was outside with my boyfriend and we go over to the pool area and we just like took a little walk over to the pool area and there was a cat there. So the cat just starts following me back and I was like, okay, what is this cat trying to tell me right now? And this lady comes out and she goes. Cats really like absorb other people, like your feelings and like the negative energy. And I was like, oh, so that's what this cat's doing, just taking all of my negative energy. So maybe tomorrow will be better. And we ended up going to bed and and my boyfriend said that he had a really crazy trip and I just went straight to sleep. I think I just got rid of all of the ayahuasca. I got rid of everything that was inside of me. My entire microbiome was different, like the next day. So, which is a huge factor for depression if you have a shitty microbiome LOL, shitty, yeah. So then the next day we did Samadhi, which is actually the Mexican version of Ayahuasca and it's in pill form instead of like this sludge. The sludge of Ayahuasca tastes like, uh, navy coffee, yeah, which is like like if you didn't stir a hot chocolate, you know how, like you got like the chunks at the bottom. That's what the texture of it is. It doesn't taste like hot chocolate, it tastes like shitty, shitty, shitty navy coffee, with like shit at the bottom, which is nuts. But Samadhi is another thing. So he describes Ayahuasca as like the mountain and the mountain with all the cracks, all the cracks through your, your traumas and everything that's happened to you. And then, once you take Samadhi, you're at the top of the mountain and Bufo, which I'll also talk about, is the swing at the top of the mountain. So he's taking you on this like journey and I close my eyes and I'm like, okay, all right, samadhi, let's work. We all got a blue pill. He literally had red pills and blue pills, which are hilarious, right Matrix. So he gives us the full dose is the blue pill and each of the red pills is a quarter dose. So we all sit down. I'm just like, okay, I'm not comfortable. So I like lay on my stomach, I'm like drumming to the beat. And then this voice in my head was like you need to sing. If you don't sing, you're not going to fix your voice, and you're not, you're going to lose your voice. You need to sing. So I was like fine, I get up. And I'm like all right, I got a pee. So I start walking in the bathroom with my boyfriend and then Humberto, our Shaman, was sitting on the stairs and I was like hey, when I get back from the bathroom, I want you to play this song. It's called I am light. And he goes oh, that's interesting, I was about to play that next and he like starts scrolling on Spotify Listen. I'm like, yeah, I'm sure you were. He clicks on it and I was like all right, fine, so I go sit back down. I like cross my legs, I get into a nice little meditative state like my fingers are touching, and I didn't leave that spot for six hours, did not even get up, couldn't even tell why I needed to pee. There was just not dripping down my nose. I was crying. I was like, just, I just kept. I stayed in this amazing, incredible meditative state for six hours and the entire time there were entities talking to me and they were like we know you're ready. We are encouraging you to be a leader. Make sure that you remember this. You need to remember this. And then they were. They just kept telling me all of these incredible things, all the answers that I've ever needed. They were. They were like shaking me, like no, no, no, like you're fine, everything's good. And then my grandma showed up, like her spirit showed up and they were like we have her here, she's, she's here to speak to you and she comes. She comes to me and she she says, don't worry about your throat, neurosophagus will be healed. And puts puts like her, like her spirit, was like in my throat and it felt like someone was grabbing me and just like healing me, which was so nuts. And after after that, I was like I think I can like swallow again. It's definitely like the symptoms are definitely getting better and better. But I also think that's because I've continued a meditation practice and I've been able to like tap into that those gamma waves, so that way I can fix my body, because I really believe that we can heal ourselves. But once I woke up, I looked over to my boyfriend and his eyes were like so blue and he was crying and he was just like I love you so much and he was being so sweet and I was like, oh hell, yeah, he's like this has been such a crazy experience and I was like, yeah, it really has. I just like, really calmly, like the world is so amazing. There's so many things that I just I love about. Like that experience was nuts. I'm like I wonder if I can get to the same place if I take mushrooms or acid, probably, but I don't need to go to like a rave or something and take acid. That does nothing for me. I would much rather just like let me tap into my ancestors and talk to my grandma, like hold. On the third day we did ayahuasca again and when I woke up from Samadhi I looked over at Humberto and I was like I don't ever need ayahuasca, ever again. And he goes no one's no one needs ayahuasca. It's a tool, and the tool is for you to hit the veil and get beyond it so you can see what's there, because there is something there, there are people there, there is everyone there, we are everybody. Every time, all everything is up there and once you become no one, nowhere, no time getting into theta waves, you can hit those, everybody, everywhere, and we're all connected. So the site. The third day, ayahuasca, I took one cup. I was like you know, he offered you could do Samadhi again or you could do ayahuasca. I took one cup and I got back into a meditative state, didn't throw up once, nothing. It was very calm. Nothing crazy happened and I was just like visualizing my future and my daughter who was, and I don't have kids yet my daughter came to me. I had all of the spirits of my kids in front of me and it was just like an affirmation that I'm going to get everything that I, that I want, and I know that I will. And the more that we develop together as a community and we like build each other up, we can raise our consciousness. And once you get into that area I keep saying that because there's like there's this, this, like drawing, that Joe dispens a made of, just like waves, right, so matters like a really long frequency. And then, once you get to nothing, it's like you know, closer, sorry, closer and then once you get up, it's like just one steady state right Of everybody. We're all connected and yeah, so once, once that evening was over, I was like, okay, I don't really think I need a second cup, I'm very content with my trip, like I'm calm, I'm ready to start the day, and, and those, those were the only three days that we did something, but it was all so powerful and so beautiful, and I would not have had the same week at Joe dispens if I would not have done those things and open myself up in such a way that, like I felt, okay the first day at Joe dispens was really hard because you're around 1900 people and everyone's like, okay, I don't trust these people, like I don't feel safe, like you don't have that, that, that one, that first shocker, like filled you know your root, you're not, you're not like feeling that safety and security. So once you start to open yourself up and you realize like all these people are here for love and we're all here to heal each other, things just get way better and you can start to become coherent and then you do the coherence healings which I've never seen so many people get up out of wheelchairs before, like that was insane. So yeah, that was my experience in Mexico and the retreat is called Mexi soul and me X I S O U L Mexi soul, and it's an hour outside of God, a lahara, and the people who run it are great people and they're they're looking for veterans who need that healing and I'm happy to get anybody in contact with them, um, as I am pretty close to the guy who runs it.

Speaker 1: 37:07

So, yeah, Well, you know, just speaking of like connectivity with people and people being always connected, you have these stories of people doing you know, the ayahuasca retreats, or like going into an, a DM, a DMT retreat and talking about seeing the same exact thing to the T to the T, not like similarities in their story, like seeing the same exact entity having the same exact conversation, like that proves to me that our minds are all connected. We just don't open ourselves up. I mean, I mean, what is the statistic? What is it Like? 10% of the brain power is like what the human uses on most days. Like which?

Speaker 2: 38:04

actually isn't true, but I know where you're getting, I know what you're getting at.

Speaker 1: 38:12

I mean listen, that's just stuff I've read, I've had people tell me before. It's not true, but like who knows, like I'm, I've got that West Virginia edumication. So, uh, you know, we ain't known for being the smartest crackers in the cookie jar. You know what I'm saying.

Speaker 2: 38:30

No, but I will say we don't use enough of our conscious brain. I would say that 5% percent, about 5% of what we do is in our conscious brain and if you can change that number to somewhere around like 70% and lower that subconscious, you start to really be able to have just a really good relationship with your ego and those, those thoughts that keep coming in I'm not good enough, I'm not this, I'm not that that can start to subside because you're peeling back that layer of just like no, no, no, I'm not subconscious, I am conscious, I'm conscious of my own thoughts, I'm conscious of my actions, I am conscious of the things that I'm grateful for, I'm loving, I am, I am everything about this world that I love and I can't wait to just like share that with people and just realizing that is your higher self. Your higher self is that five percent and you want to become more of that, more of love and more of gratitude and more of abundance, because that's what we deserve, that's what you deserve.

Speaker 1: 39:38

One hundred percent. I mean, you know, in my personal experience, in my opinion, I feel like a lot of people Can deal with the quote on should, should go through the quote unquote ego death. Granted, some people force it on themselves, some people don't. But there comes a time in someone's life where someone challenges their ego right, challenges that person and or something challenges that person and you come out on the back end of it a better person. You know, before I got in the army, you know I was the type of you know kid in school that I'm the kid that people hit up for to find the connect for weed or find the connect for acid or find the. You know pretty much find the connect for just about anything. You know minus like harder stuff. But I remember I was sixteen, maybe sixteen seventeen, it was before I joined the army. I took an ass, I took some acid, went on a crazy trip and I felt it start getting really bad and I'm like I need to go to a dark room by myself for probably fifteen minutes. Turned on one of my favorite artists at the time. His name's benja. He does like reggae. It's fucking amazing. It's beautiful. He's from florida, he's. He's always been one of my favorite artists. He's, you know, he's got a song called a never gonna quit, sixteen years like. All these songs are just beautiful songs and I throw in my headphones, play him. Next thing I know my friend comes in the room. I'm crying, fucking, I'm just grooving to the music, just chillin. I think that's the one time in my life I've hit some kind of meditative state and I remember after this trip I come out and I'm like Dude, why do people hate on each other and like it just like brought an epiphany to me, another epiphany in my life that you know I mean. Granted, it took a little bit of a substance to help me, you know, figure this stuff out. But I'm sorry, but I've known more people to come out of An acid trip in you, an acid trip or mushroom trip or dmt trip and they used it in the way that it's supposed, in my opinion, supposed to be used. Yes, it's a good time, yes, it can be a party drug, but hallucinogens for the mental, in my opinion, are medicine and if they are used properly and you do what you and you force yourself to take out of it what you need to take out of it, instead of looking at it as a good time and actually work on yourself. You can overcome anything that is in front of you.

Speaker 2: 42:46

Yes, absolutely. And before my boyfriend and I went out to mexico, we actually ended up taking acid and going to this like Rave, I am like a linear I don't know if you're familiar I love a linear is not one of my favorites, but I am. We didn't even like stay long enough to see him. We went in and we were there so early the lights were still on in the venue and then, like we were like sitting down for a minute and I was like let's go down there and like dance and stuff, because I'm a big dancer and I was just like this sucks, like awful, I'm so bored. First of all, he bought the wrong tickets, which is fine, that's fine. We're supposed to go to the one at I change the name of these fields I can't even remember what they are where the broncos play and said yeah, I think it's like in power field now A mile higher some shit like that. They say you see, call an, invest, go. When I was a kid, so invest, go, field at mile high. But yeah, we ended up going and I was like this sucks. So we went home we were like we should probably just get an uber and leave. I'm sure a lenient was great. I I've actually really never heard his music at all. That would have been like the first time that I did. And I don't know, not, not my company. I'd much rather be home, like trying to meditate and talk to my ancestors like so sounds great.

Speaker 1: 44:22

So going to like a rave or an edm event and taking any anything doesn't matter if it's ketamine, doesn't matter if it's your taken acid, you take molly. You're literally taking it For the good time, not to work through it, which. I've got nothing against people that do that now me neither, just I think, it's. Honestly it's not my thing either, cuz you know I've been edm events drunker in a fucking skunk and it's the worst time I've ever had. But then I also have been to a lot of edm events where I stay relatively sober. You know I might have a couple beers or, you know, might have a couple drinks, but like you know I'd I stay coherent and it's the greatest time of my life. The love that you have in the edm community is amazing. For prime example, the wife and I before we got married we went to an event in baltimore called fright night. It was a two day event and my wife stands and she's doing her thing and she hits a girl in the face like I don't mean, like she punched her, like she was walking by, my wife flings and hits her in the face. The girl comes back and apologizes to my wife for getting into her space.

Speaker 2: 45:45

What is that?

Speaker 1: 45:48

And you know the edm community, you know, always has had the saying, you know, player peace, love, unity, respect, right and that's what drew me to the edm community. You know I'm a metal headed heart. I love my metal. But the edm community is amazing. But also the metal community is getting on that same level. You know what I mean? It's it's. It's a beautiful thing to see. Yes, metals and aggressive music.

Speaker 2: 46:19

I know my friend loves it too not my, not my favorite, but I get it. There are some really good lyrics and he's shown me some, some things that I'm like.

Speaker 1: 46:27

Okay, I can get on board a little bit girl I'm going to put you on to grant him. My wife heard it before I ever heard it and then I sent it to her and she's like, oh, I've already heard this song. I'm like what the fuck? But it's a song called the price of grace and If you're a metalhead, it's a beautiful song for a metalhead. But if you listen to the lyrics it's heavy, super, super heavy. First time I listen to it I bought, I cried like a motherfucker. I'm on my way to work to. I'm like I'm gonna turn this song on so I can jam and stay awake in the morning and I'm just sitting there like, and dude, it's, I'm. I've been a metalhead since I was a fucking, since I was in the fifth grade. That's where never I found slipknot. I found bands like system up down all that. And music has always been my therapy, you know. Hence the acid trip story I told you. First place I went whenever I started feeling uncomfortable is I went right to music. That's. That's always been my therapy. So it's got through everything in my life. Whatsoever need to be good times, bad times, shitty times, the worst fucking time you can be in in your life. And that song has really helped out, because the whole premise of the song is suicide. That's what the whole song is about, which is super, super, just something that I'm always been Obsessed about, not not obsessed like in, like wanting to do it, but obsessed about because, you know, the veteran community, twenty two a day, the male community, you know is the suicide rates are so high. Yeah way high. I mean, listen, anything more than one percent of people is way too high for suicide. Because, even though you know, yes, people are in shitty situations, but life is honestly beautiful I mean it really is. You know, even if you got a fight and scrap to get to where you need to be, life is beautiful.

Speaker 2: 48:38

No, matter where you end up. Do you need all of the stuff around you? Do you really need it? No, no, you don't. And once you can get to that realization of just like, okay, I don't need any of this junk, like any of the things that I have right now, this, this pen with my phone number on it, this mug that says you already have what it takes, like I don't need any of this stuff. I don't. All I need is love and the people that are around, that are around me, and obviously food and water and sleep, but, like, this stuff is just luxury and the materialistic cycle is what gets people stuck in the matrix. I need to have this new bag from coach. I need to have the new xbox, because otherwise I won't be able to play with my friends. I need to have I don't know many jars, many jars filled with jam, like what I need to have all this stuff? You don't. You don't need this shit. You need this stuff, but it's nice to have and you, you don't. Once you start getting out of the lack mentality of, okay, well, I have to keep all of this shit, which this is an epiphany for me that I just had in this moment, I need to keep all this shit, because one day I'll use it. Fucking cares throw it away I got it.

Speaker 1: 50:02

I got on the team the other day. I just did that this morning for listen team was a fucking trap. It is a mother fucking trap for anyone out there thinking about downloading it, don't. It is a trap because I'm telling you right now every fucking time you get on there there's a new fucking deal and I've got. I got like four hundred dollars worth of shit for like sixty eight bucks.

Speaker 2: 50:32

I spent two hundred eighty three dollars on it this morning because, I wanted new shirts, but like Dammit, you caught me.

Speaker 1: 50:46

I try to keep notifications from apps off my phone unless it's, you know, like Facebook or, you know, people trying to get a hold of me and, dude, I get like eight fucking notifications a day from team because I forgot to turn off the notifications.

Speaker 2: 51:01

When they pop, when that thing populate. So like, do you want to turn on notifications? You can see when you're getting your stuff and you're like well, of course I need to know when my new shirts and my Random shoes are coming in. I ordered a bunch of like crystals and tarot cards and shit and I'm like I really should not have done that. But it's a tax write off, it's for my business.

Speaker 1: 51:22

Do I? I got a the last time I got on team. You bought A toothbrush sanitizer um shit I bought a colander that goes on the side of your pot so that you don't need to like pour everything out and then pour it back in. I bought a new litter box for the kiddies. I bought a new litter box like the pad that goes in front like catch the litter as they come out, bought a new one of those. I bought a ear wax remover. That's bluetooth that hooks up to your phone.

Speaker 2: 52:04

What else I have to know, I have to figure out all the random things that I bought.

Speaker 1: 52:12

But you know, granted, I'm sitting there telling people not to download team you but like, honestly, they got some killer fucking deals.

Speaker 2: 52:19

It's it's like I know and I feel so bad from buying from sheen like I I don't. I think I've never okay, I have never bought from sheen, but I have bought from fashion nova and that was the worst decision in my life. I think fit me and I was like I thought this was for kermi girls. This is a lie.

Speaker 1: 52:39

My wife has bought some stuff from sheen. Granted the shit going on machine right now. I literally just found out about like yesterday because of tiktok.

Speaker 2: 52:47

We want them.

Speaker 1: 52:48

Oh, they're like in a. They're like in a riko case right now. What is that? It's like a racketeering case Because like, because apparently you have like shell companies that are ripping off like artists, stuff like they're. They're Art, and then they're selling it to this company, and then this company selling it to this company and then this company selling it to sheen. But there's connections at all. These shell companies are just affiliates of sheen.

Speaker 2: 53:20

It's like Joe Biden shits wild.

Speaker 1: 53:22

Yeah, but uh and like. But do? My wife has gotten like dude. She's got some nice shit, I ain't gonna lie. I mean she bought a new tapestry from sheen the other, you know, a couple weeks ago she bought, you know, some bathing suit tops from sheen that are fucking amazing. But um you know you've got all these like apps right now that are shopping apps, like team you sheen, fashion, nova that are good, like even fab lettix let's talk about fab lettix for a second granted to get some of the deals. You got to pay for their yearly subscription, but then at the back end of it you're getting shorts that are normally $100, like golf shorts for like 20 bucks. That's worth $140 a year subscription.

Speaker 2: 54:12

I know, and that's how they keep us in consumerism. It's just like, hey, let me throw at you all of this stuff that you're, you know you've been kind of searching for. I got. What did I? What really sucked me in? Oh, it was something really dumb. But Once I saw that they had that like sticky stuff that you can like use in your car to get the like the crumbs out, I was like, oh yes, I started looking at that. And then I started looking at like shaman drums and I bought a couple of those, and, and then I was looking at like crystals and then I started looking at shirts and I was like, oh my god, they really have everything on this thing. I'm like this is better than Walmart. I spent like $267 and got like 44 items. Why did I need it?

Speaker 1: 54:58

I didn't need it, but it's fine, it's fine listen, my, my, let's uh, let me use call of duty as an example because I, I, uh, I enjoy like, like you know that's, that's another thing I enjoy doing to let off steam as much as it stresses me the fuck out like I still feel better, better coming off of the game. You know well, they just did a collaboration with the show, the boys, so they brought, you know, like, starfire to the game as a character. You can get home lander as a character, black noir as a character.

Speaker 2: 55:32

Oh, no way.

Speaker 1: 55:34

Yeah, I, I got a set up my computer and and I'm sitting there and I look at my wife. I was like I must spend so much fucking money. She's like why. I'm like for one. I can get Starfire, which is fucking dope to. I can get home lander or never. I'm feeling patriotic. I can play as home lander. Black noir is the new rose skin. It's, it's gonna be. I know it's gonna be.

Speaker 2: 56:00

That's so sick. Mmm.

Speaker 1: 56:03

They really got me. This is like my favorite collab. That call of duty is done. I mean, they did the Godzilla and King Kong one awesome, cool, whatever. But to bring in a show that is like the boys is one of my favorite fucking superhero shows ever made, because it's the it's, it's like it shows Like what if superheroes are really just fucking dickheads and they're only nice for publicity?

Speaker 2: 56:36

I'm perfect, it's fine. Also, my body hurts, but I can just. I can still beat up all these fucking dudes Like what do you?

Speaker 1: 56:44

mean dude. Listen home. Lander is a literally Superman if he was a cocksucker.

Speaker 2: 56:54

Which I think you are is, is a clone of him. I think most people say that he is or like. No, the opposite, really. That's what I heard.

Speaker 1: 57:04

No, no, no. Black noir is his own person. Um, the homelander is the clone of soldier boy which is played by Jensen Akles Hubba hubba. You know what I'm saying? I thought that was his kid. It is so like black noir is Not a clone of homelander at all. That's what I was well, because, like in so I don't know if you've watched the latest season spoiler.

Speaker 2: 57:30

Is it out you?

Speaker 1: 57:32

I mean, season 3 was out, which, like you kind of like see the backstory of black noir Because he starts going back to like his childhood, like where he went to as a kid before. Yeah, so like you, see the backstory of black noir and I'm like there he's, he's not a clone, like he was just a regular fucking kid and then he got shot up.

Speaker 2: 57:55

Yeah, they all did, didn't they no?

Speaker 1: 57:58

so, like homelander technically did, but he was made out of a test tube, like you know. It's kind of weird things, you know. But, um, honestly though, like the one person, I wish they would have brought in soldier boy for this collab. But you know, it is what it is. Whatever you know, I'd rather play. So like they've only dropped Starfire so far as like a playable character, but you can see that homeland or a black noir is coming, so like they're releasing them slowly.

Speaker 2: 58:30

So you don't know if they have soldier boy yet no, but they've only came out about. I'm gonna have to hop on there. Even I'll try to find my time through all of the things that I'm doing.

Speaker 1: 58:47

Oh, I mean honestly, I didn't. I literally just started playing call it like two weeks ago is the first time I've hopped on call of duty since, like April, which call of duty is it that's warzone to? The new one and MW two, warzone to, warzone to is free for anyone out there that hasn't touched it, because you thought you had to pay for it but you don't.

Speaker 2: 59:12

But I mean do gaming?

Speaker 1: 59:15

gaming's one of my guilty pleasures. Do I need to do it? Probably not, but it's a nice little sit down and chill out thing.

Speaker 2: 59:25

Yeah, if I need a minute, I hop on like fortnight or call of duty and I just like a chill. I've been taking two minutes, too many minutes the last couple months, but now I think after this, this retreat, I'm going to be so much better off. I got rid of all my TVs. I only have a TV in my Airbnb down here, which is this is my Airbnb that I'm in right now. I this is like the bottom half of my house and then I live at the top and I'm not even I don't own this home. I actually rental arbitrage it. So that's super amazing because I like I rarely pay rent anywhere that I live. Hell, yeah, yeah. So I actually am just getting into real estate investing as well. I've had a long term rental for a long time and then, yeah, I've done Airbnb. I've had a couple here in Colorado but I've had to like move them because I only have like rentals. I'm trying to get a much longer lease. But you have to like build that trust and rapport with with your landlord before, so I just I show them like hey, I'm never gonna be laid on a payment. I have an 820 credit score. Like I'm a very good human when it comes to all this crazy shit. So I think that I'm going to be really well suited to help people just kind of figure out their lives, because I've been able to do so much as a 30 year old woman like I've never felt more like secure and myself and more just like ready to take things on. From all of these experiences that I've been on, I'm really really grateful for for being on your podcast and just like being being a part of your community, and I hope to continue this relationship and make sure that you know we can find we can find the veterans that need help and find the people who are transitioning out of the military so we don't lose any of our friends anymore, because that's 100%.

Speaker 1: 1:01:31

Dude, that's, that's the hardest thing about being in. Is hearing about losing the people that you've served with that you thought were the most sure minded people out there, that that is truly one of the hardest things about being in? I mean, is being, you know, deploying and being away from family for extended period of time suck, yes, it does, but the friendships and the bonds that you make while in the brotherhoods, the sisterhoods, all of it, and then hearing about that one person just didn't think they could cut it outside of the military.

Speaker 2: 1:02:07

If we can, if we can do one thing for people is to let them know that they don't have to live in the hormones of stress. And when you get out of the military, your amygdala is just on fire with all the stress hormones. The cocktail of just like, okay, I'm always in survival mode, always in survival mode, always in survival mode. When you get out, you're not in survival mode anymore and you're like okay, is this safe? Is the safe? Is the safe? Is the safe? I can't tell if this is safe. I'm like, okay, I don't want to like dump on them, because when you're in the military you dump on everybody. You just trauma bond with them. You're like, yeah, my life is so shitty and all this other shit, like I had the worst parents and now I'm here in the military and blah, blah, blah, blah. And there's so much of that and not enough of just like, hey, I have your back. Like the people that I flew with I don't 90, 90% of them I wouldn't have trusted to save my life. That plane went down, I would have saved somebody. But that's just my loving nature, that's my nurturing nature. And Once we, once we can discern that like we're no longer in survival mode, we can start to turn down those levels of cortisol and get us to the point where we're starting to develop less and less of that and our mcdala can go back to a normal size and our frontal lobe can redevelop those neural pathways for us to remember things and to be present in our lives. And that is what I need people to understand is it's not your fault. It's not your fault for the way that you're feeling and you've been placed in a box and someone's told you that you are all of these things and you have to be here and this is the only way that you're going to survive, when In reality it's not true. We have so much more. There's so many more aspects to life than just feeling like, okay, well, I'm just, I'm just this soldier and I've only been given this one thing and I I don't think that I'll be able to make it outside of the military and I'm going to lose all my friends and I'm going to lose all this and I'm going to lose all that. You have an opportunity just to change that and to go into the yang instead of the in and just Really, just delve into your soft side and like your feminine side, not feminine as in like A woman. But we have polarities in our life for feminine and masculine, and we're Were Any other polarity that you can think of. You know like we are two things always, and when you find that balance which is what I've been finding is I'm no longer in my masculine, I'm very much in a very good balance in my life. And Once you can find that, you start to redevelop those neural pathways and fix the amygdala and fix the frontal lobe, and everything that I have done has helped me. I was going to help me, somebody help me before. Help me. Sitting in meditation for 60 hours in two and a half weeks help me and we. We just have to get that out to people because it's that's what you need. You need this. You need something to be more self aware so you can stop having the same things happen over and over again and you can break those patterns and get back to who you truly are.

Speaker 1: 1:05:33

A fucking man, hell, yeah, you know. I think that's a good spot to put a bookmark in this, because you and I could keep talking for hours upon hours. I know and this is how it was the last time we chitchatted For anyone who's wanting to reach out for to ask about veterans purpose project, or just reach out to have someone to talk to, what is the easiest way of getting hold of you or where can people find you at?

Speaker 2: 1:06:02

Right now that's just going to be my Instagram page. Kelly school, kelly Fitzpatrick, underscore twenty two. The veterans purpose project also has an Instagram page. I haven't had enough time to really update it recently because I've been on this crazy journey with myself and I needed to get to this point in order for that to start really working. And I've got, I've got my people around me, we're ready to go and everything will be executed very shortly. So just message me on Instagram, comment on one of my photos, because I have a lot of people who DM me and if you want to stand out, just comment on one of my photos and I will. I will see what I can do about getting you into A program that we're we're launching next, next year, or something along the lines of like a retreat, or just getting you in touch, getting you in touch with somebody who can help you.

Speaker 1: 1:07:00

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